ReaLity Bites.

They day my fortress falls

You'll be the one the first brick hits..

Rather then going down below...

I chose to go to higher ground.

" Volta Ou vai embora meu amor...
Sem ameaças

Ensaiadas na frente do espelho
O caminho mais fácil

Nem sempre é melhor
Que o da Dor..." [♪]

(Cant seem to get this song out of my head...)

"It seems like I woke up

Beneath a different sky

And I'm drunk on what I'm seeing

Through these open eyes

All the little ways you move me

All the places you expose

The illusion I held onto

You've got me letting go

I just wanna stay here

Soaking up the rain

Falling all around me

Wash the world away
Live, like it's the last moon rising

Scream, just like no one's there

Lose all of my defenses

Hold you, touch you, love you

Like it's the very last moment in time
Let me feel you next to me

Let me taste the breath you breathe

Open up the space between us....." [♪]

Today I put on that black top...

Havent wore it since those days.

It somehow kept your scent with it

Have no idea why,

maybe its just my silly imagination playing tricks on me once again.

Just know it was enough to make me wonder..

Wonder why 'perfection' lead to deception

And a major one.

I miss that 'perfection', that whole idea of completeness

that I felt because of you.

But something else came to me

I realized its not about you..it never was.

I dont miss you. I dont want you back

But I do miss the sense my being made

Just by having someone like you around.
The reason one had to wake up everyday,

and always expect something different.

It was never about you, nor who you were,

It was about the presence,

it was about the key piece of the puzzle you somehow got to represent

That I never had in my life before...

It was about having someone to smile to and for,

Someone present in all those moments no one else was capable of being

Its about really connecting
and really knowing what ones about.

Almost hurting like hell some days now thats gone,

when you come to realize...

you just might never find something quite like that.

Maybe as good or even better...but never quite like that.

14.11.07 MJ

[ Being happy doesn't mean everything's perfect,

it means you've decided to see beyond the imperfections ]

Love/Romance and all that jazz...........

Do you know it..?

Do you have it in you...?

Why do ppl want it so much anyway...?!

"...There's enough for everyone,

But I'm still waiting in line......." [♪ ]

"...Porque en tu mar voy naufragando y yo no sé...
No sé Si conviene estar nadando
O es mejor dejarse ir al fondo....

.Cariño mio que puedo hacer
No me resigno a estar asi
Por eso yo que te amo
Vivo implorando
Ayudame y te destruiré..." [♪]

[I wana let go...cause I know, you might just let me....]

NO TE AMO.

.
No te amo como si fueras rosa de sal,
topacio o flecha de claveles que propagan el fuego:

te amo como se aman ciertas cosas oscuras,

secretamente, entre la sombra y el alma.

.

Te amo como la planta que no florece

y lleva dentro de sí, escondida, la luz de aquellas flores,

y gracias a tu amor vive oscuro en mi cuerpo

el apretado aroma que ascendió de la tierra.

.
Te amo sin saber cómo, ni cuándo, ni de dónde,

te amo directamente sin problemas ni orgullo:

así te amo porque no sé amar de otra manera,
sino así de este modo en que no soy ni eres,

tan cerca que tu mano sobre mi pecho es mía,

tan cerca que se cierran tus ojos con mi sueño.

.Pablo neruda.

[I wasnt lookin for nobody when u looked my way....]