DEEP SHADOWS AND BRILLIANT HIGHLIGHTS

"DEEP SHADOWS AND BRILLIANT HIGHLIGHTS"

EPILOGUE

What I write may not make sense, most of my thoughts dont.

How I feel may not be well accepted by many

It doesnt matter,

what I know is what I believe in

And even having my better judgment clouded by this State,

I fight for what I want.

I fight against what is disposable.

And in the end,
we all wake up every morning
wishing we layed beneath a different sky,
living a different life
Closing our eyes at the end of the day
yearning for that same change
we badly yearned the day before....

...Clarity is what we need.

{ 29.06.08 }

{ Metamorphosis } (all over again)

I probably need to stop…

Take another breath, and just think.

I’m guessing I must come to an exact understanding of what is happening to me

before I lose my complete sense of direction.

I came back different.

I came back wanting and caring about different matters…

I feel like I’m trapped in my own shell (and I know I probably am…),

Surrounded by things I no longer recognize or relate to.

Every joke, any talk or event seems completely banal,

No longer creating that same effect on me as it used to a month ago…

No one really notices it, lives are just so filled with issues

so futile and transitory as the little grains of sand on the beach…

Futile. Ordinary. Non-captivating.

That’s how everything seems to me now

I know not if its caused by you,

strange distant presence that I now crave

More than anything else

Or if its just that time to leave…

Move on. To bigger things…

To some other place where life has more meaning

than here in a single pathetic weekend.…

Change…

it isn’t always for the best…

But it can’t be worse that being caught up

in the same old “this”.

[.by.MJ.20.01.08.]