a decent line of thought worth paying attention too..

" (...) I believe that mankind's destiny lies in the stars.

I believe that candy really did taste better when I was a kid;

That it's aerodynamically impossible for a bumble bee to fly;

That light is a wave and a particle;

That there's a cat in a boz somewhere who's alive and dead at the same time

(although if they don't even open the box to feed it

it'll eventually just be two different kinds of dead);

And that there are stars in the universe billions of years older that the universe itself.

I believe in a personal god who cares about me and worries and oversees everything I do.

I believe in a inpersonal god who set the universe in motion and went off to hangwith her girlfriends and doesn't even know I'm alive.

I believe in an empty godless universe of causal chaos, background noise,and sheer blind luck.

I believe that anyone who says sex is overrated just hasn't done it properly.

I believe that anyone who claims to know what's going on will lie about the little things too.

I believe in absolute honesty and sensible social lies.

I believe in a woman's right to choose, a baby's right to live;

That while all life is sacred there's nothing wrong with the death penalty if you trust the legal system implicitly;

And that no one but a moron would ever trust the legal system.

I believe that life is a game, that life is a cruel joke,

and that life is what happens when you're alive and you might as well lie back and enjoy it "

by Neil Gaiman

[think about it]

爱你

"I like to see people reunited, maybe that's a silly thing,

but what can I say, I like to see people run into each other,

I like the kissing and crying,

I like the impatience, the stories that the mouth can't tell fast enough,

the ears that aren't big enough, the eyes that can't take in all of the change, I like the hugging, the bringing together,

the end of missing someone..."

-Jonathan Safran Foer-

"We pass through the present with our eyes blindfolded.

We are permitted merely to sense and guess at what we are actually experiencing.

Only later when the cloth is untied can we glance at the past and find out what we have experienced and what meaning it has.. "

-Milan Kundera in Laughable Loves-

"Suponho que me entender não é uma questão de inteligência e sim de sentir, de entrar em contacto...ou toca ou não toca... "- Clarice Lispector

" (...) a existência depende de pequenos acasos, de encontros com pessoas que, apesar de fugazes, nos podem deixar rastos de luz de um valor incalculável..."-Amalia Decker Marquez

in Tardes de Chuva e Chocolate

these should be your words.

"Seja você quem for

agora segurando minha mão,

sem uma coisa há de ser tudo inútil

-É um leal aviso o que lhe dou

antes que continue a me tentar:

Não sou aquele que você imagina,

mas muito diferente.
(...)
Quem é que gostaria de lançar sua candidatura ao meu afecto?
O caminho é suspeito,

o resultado é incerto, destrutivo talvez;

teriam que abrir mão de tudo mais

tendo eu a pretensão de ser seu padrão único e exclusivo;

sua iniciação haveria de ser ainda assim

extensa e fatigante,

(...) toda a conformidade com as vidas em redor

precisariam de ser abandonadas;
Por isso deixe-me agora antes de perturbar-se ainda mais,

deixe cair sua mão do meu ombro,

coloque-me de lado

e siga seu caminho..."

Walt Whitman in Paulo Coelho 'o Vencedor Está Só'

...I wrenched the door out of my way-

ridiculously eager- and there he was, my personal miracle.

Time had not made me immune to the perfection of his face,

and I was sure I would never take any aspect of him for granted.

My eyes traced over his pale white features (...)

I saved his his eyes for last,

knowing that when I looked into them I was likely to lose my train of thought

(...)

Staring into his eyes always made me feel extraordinary-

sort of like my bones were turning spongy.

I was also a little lightheaded,

but that could have been because I'd forgotten to keep breathing...again.."

[sigh].*

Stephenie Meyer 'Eclipse' (Twilight Saga)

Journals Of My Alternate Mind

IV The Deception Point
Pt. 3

The moments shared,
promises and reassuring made combustive in my heart,
The anger, all my tears,pathetically shed in the office’s WC that morning,
the betrayal, the disappointment, his increasing apologies,
I couldn’t be more disgusted, I couldn’t say another word…
It was there, the ecstasy of my deception point.

And tonight, after all said and done, I write these lines in search of comfort,
or perhaps a logical explanation I’ll never come across.
Sorrow still lingers at the thought of him,
but the only thing that reminisces in my soul,

is the image of my body violently raging against his,
with my very last strength, with every single emotion in me conflicting and exploding onto him.
I hit him, I hurt him…

But it wounded me.
…

13.01.09 by Js.

Journals Of My Alternate Mind

IV. The Deception Point
Pt. 2

It’s the strangest phenomena,

when two lovers face each other in silence,
and are able to feel both everything and nothing all together…

He cautiously sat beside her,

yearning for the warmth

they both knew they needed from each other.

He would open his mouth to try to speak,

but words failed to be pronounced,
And she was shifting further and further away,

dealing with her own emotions very roughly.
He sensed she knew exactly what he intended to say,

that instead of making it easier,
only made things excruciatingly harder…

but it was too late to go back,

he had to say something.

The mutual stillness was suddenly interrupted by his abrupt words

condemning the unfounded ending

to their short but intense relationship.
It just wasn’t powerful enough to surpass his fear

and uncertainty towards his and his young daughter’s future.
It wasn’t protected well enough

to outdo his ex’s constant manipulative schemes to get him back

so she could have her pride repaired.
It wasn’t meaningful enough for him

to try and beat all odds against them.

Fury and disbelief frenzied in her eyes,

burning him through razor-sharp words…

13.01.09 by Js.