(You)phoria

They say certain states of euphoria -such as love - often impair your judgment;

Clouding your will and beliefs; And your personality, pff..gone, completely altered and defined by a strange body of emotions that isn’t your own.

Loving you is entirely out of my jurisdiction, out of my competence to absorb and deal with.

Loving you is something I never thought possible after all I've been through, and learned not to do.

There's nothing I wouldn't do for you, until a few days ago I would drop anything I'd be doing just to attend to you;

To make you happy, regardless of I what I wanted in the first place.

I wanted more from you, so much more, but that didn’t seem relevant when I was presented with the options of having you in my life for only brief moments or not have you at all.

It was less than I deserved, but I took it, because I love you.

It's a shame to see all that effort go to waste in a minute..

I was the one who should have chosen to pull away, but instead I stayed, ready to face the fate you single-handedly decided to set for yourself and I.

For some reason you couldn’t even stand by your decision long enough..

Makes me wonder if I'm perhaps the only one with the clouded judgment and in between those states of euphoria.

Regardless of what it is, it has come to that time..

the time to move on. 

MJ